“It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there, because it’s not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is to cry and to feel. But it’s that cold absence of feeling — that really hollowed out feeling. That’s what dementors are.” — J.K Rowling.
I’d heard the dementor comparison sometime last year and I’d kind of forgotten about it. It really is the perfect description of depression. It sucks out all the happiness and joy from you until all you can feel is darkness, sadness, anger and negativity. As you get deeper and deeper into depression, even those negative feelings begin to disappear. You begin to feel numb. Occasionally, anger and frustration will come out, until they become too intense and somehow you end up feeling numb again.
I Don’t Fit the Stereotype of a Depressed Person
By Madeline Riddle, Contributor, The Mighty
Side note… It’s been a few weeks since I wrote this post, where I thought I was starting to get better. Turns out I spoke too soon. That’s kind of why I haven’t been writing much. I’m still struggling quite a bit.